I don’t know if it’s just me but ever since I became a mum, I can’t just ‘go out’. I don’t mean that we struggle to get a babysitter or that the Queen will only settle for me, it’s just that I feel like I can’t. If I really wanted to, I could go for after work drinks once a week, every week and my husband could do the same on alternate nights but, even though we’d only miss out on seeing our little one for a couple of hours (and a lot of nights she ends up in our bed anyway) we just don’t do it. And the reason is guilt. I feel guilty for wanting to go out and be away from my child. I feel guilty for spending money on dinners and taxi fares instead of putting it towards a family outing and just generally feel like I can’t do these things anymore. I used to think Catholic guilt was bad but it’s got nothing on mum (or parent) guilt.
One of my first thoughts when I became a parent was, ‘finally I can embrace my love of Disney without embarrassment’! For years, whenever I would go to Disneyland Paris or Disney World in Florida, I would always play it down. ‘Yes we’re going on a trip to Paris. We may stop by Disneyland, if we have time,’ I would say, or ‘we’re doing a tour of Florida, we’ll be spending a few days in Miami and then we might stop by Orlando and do a few parks.’ When in all honestly, the sole purpose of the trips were Disney, Disney, Disney!
My husband and I are big kids at heart and having a ready-made excuse to go to theme parks is a dream come true. Thankfully, our one-year-old loves Disney (like she has a choice) so now we do it for her (ahem…).